I think im bi but..read this?

so ive been thinking im bi, or it cud be a girl crush?? well either way i really like this girl.. im not out yet.. i dont think i will be, she seems bi too but shes not.. shes girlly and some ppl think shes bi but shes rele not, but ugh i rele like her, shes straight, we recently became friends, its killing me because i cant tell anyone about it.. i cant talk to anyone about it.. and its not even possible, but i cant get her off my mind... :( eeffffff ;'(.............. and also idk if im bi or its just a girl crush/bicurious haha help me with that too.. i have no interest in having sex with girls, just really want to to be put in a sexual position with this person like really makeout like intensly in all seriousness.. ive had feeling for a girl b4 but not like this.. but I REALLY like guys .. trust mee lol.. so i know that side is there... but anyway, my heart is broken..